About as good as a first day back at school, can get.

today was a cute day. everything was just nice and smiley and happy. might have had something to do with the fact that tom's sister brought me back a bracelet from gambia which is just the loveliest thing in the world, made my day :) i was in a 'weirdly excited' mood on the bus this morning according to hett and i think that mood pretty much lasted all day, have to say i enjoyed it. finance wasn't too interesting but listening to Josh and Rob's conversation is always amusing. science was funny as always, we were back in our dream team of me, hett, rach and tom. we won everything last year, good times! hannah and shona were with us for a bit as well. i haven't spoken to hannah in ages and i forgot how lovely she is! such a nice girlieeee. break was alright, nothing special. tutorial was boring but jonny was being funny. weird boy. science was good, not very productive but me and dan didn't argue a lot today which was strangely quite nice. although i did miss our usual 'hate' for each other a bit. lunch was okaaayyy, only saw tom for 5 minutes at the end but it's better than nothing eyy. and he's not going to be in school a lot this week but i think i can forgive him as he is filming Casualty. yes, my boyfriend is going to be in Casualty. yes, he is amazing. how excitingggg :) geography was okay, it went faster than usual. and mr bouquet wasn't in a very annoying mood thank gaaadd. sophie got terrorised. as usual. i do feel quite sorry for her but in all fairness, she does kind of bring it upon herself. i dunno. no one deserves that kind of constant..bullying..i guess. most people see it as a joke but i think it must really upset her. she always seems to be kicking off in lessons, poor kiddd. anywaays, i got home and OUR OVEN IS WORKING! it hasn't worked since christmas so for tea tonight i think we had just about every food that you have to have an oven to cook. it was goooood. i attempted to do some work and failed completely. i am so bad at working at home. i think i have to be in a certain state of mind. i wasn't in it tonight sadly. i babysat finn and connor and they were really unsettled last time i was there so i was a bit worried that they were going to be like that again but thankfully they were fine and asleep by 9 which meant i could sit and watch the oscar highlights in peace. so glad that colin firth got best actor. love him loooads.

okay, mum keeps telling me to go to sleep but i'm not very tired for once! i'd better go thoughhh,

later lads. x

oh gaga.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wV1FrqwZyKw

Just made me feel a little bit sick. Some of her music is pretty good but her videos are so fucked up it's unreal. yum...

Gotta love 'em. ♥

Until you come back where you belong, it's just another lonely sunday.

My family's been really pissing me off today. well they haven't really. only just now. went downstairs for tea and mum was shouting at me as soon as i walked through the door, fabulous. and then i went all moody and was nasty to my sister which i feel bad about now as we've had a nice day just chilling in my room doing school work and listening to music. i'll probably end up shouting at dad and sol when they arrive, wouldn't be surprised with the mood i'm in. and i miss tom. it's only been like, 5 days since i last saw him but meeehh :( don't know why i'm suddenly so grumpy, i've been really happy most of today! maybe it's the realisation that i'm back at school tomorrow. and i haven't done any work this holidays apart from today. but i figured that this is my last holiday and chance of properly relaxing, that i have before i have to really start hardcore revising for my GCSE's so i'm quite glad that my half term has just involved chilling. but now i really have to start working hard which is a bit scary. my first exam is in 3 months. brilliant.

later kids. x

smiles.

FEBRUARY HALF TERM.

Starting with the most recent at the top.

x

ohhh keef.

So yesterday, mum had a sudden urge to go to the beach and the nearest one to us is like, an hour and a half away in Dorset. mum misses the sea loads and is always going about how you can only get that certain blast by the sea or high up on the moors. both of which we used to live ten minutes away from and are now considerably further away. i read my book for most of the day (so so good) while sol just dug holes and ruth ran in and out of the sea extremely fast. weird girl. oh and she's broken her toe, it's absolutely disgusting and is bruised soooo bad. today me and dad went to collect maria, johan and julia from halfway to yorkshire where they've been this half term with their dad. i love long car journeys. so so much. just chilling with my book and ipod. noice. got me out of doing any work today as well, bonus. aww, helena was funny today, she is trying to eat everything and anything and the moment and wouldn't stop chewing dad's jacket. nom.
just went downstairs to put sol to bed and i spilled boiling water all over my hand, ouchyy, it's all red and hurty now. but i have my hot ribena. settling down in my pyjamas to watch human planet.
later losers. x

I'm not asleep but i'm not awake after the way you loved me.

Right, well. wow, don't really know where to start! i haven't blogged since saturday so i guess i'd better start on sunday. Deniz slept round on saturday night so sunday morning she was still at mine for a little bit. she went home and then tom came over (he was late, heheee). i can't really remember what happened on sunday, seems like aaages ago. ohh, we went over to hettie's to make cake and tom and hett recorded a songggg. we went back to mine and just chilled i think. tom went home at like, half 10 and me and hettie went to sleeeeep because it was london the next day :D we got up early on monday, got ready and then mum took us to chippenham train station. we got there and found out that our train had been cancelled! but thankfully we got there half an hour early and a train was just about to leave for london so we got that one instead. but in the rush to get on the train, mum didn't give us all of our tickets. whoooops. so i was worried about that most of the day but it turned out we didn't even need half of them! we got to paddington station and found our way to the tube where i put some money on my OYSTER CARD(!!!) and hett got a ticket. we went to oxford circus and met up with catherine :) then we shopped and shopped. bought some lovely stuff too. went for a starbucks but they let me down with a pathetic excuse for a cookie. oh and i managed to get frappaccino all over catherine, haa. the we had to find bun's cousin's office so that she could give catherine her suitcase. so that was fun! attempting to find somewhere in london where catherine had only been once. but we managed! and we found peanut butter cups on the way, bonus <3

so i just wrote loads more about everything and it fecking deleted. greeat. not writing it again. sozzles.

Bitter coated miracles and then one day the curtain called.

i love fearne cotton.

That's not the shape of my heart.

Yesterday was such a funny day, i have laughed so much lately. Happy timeeess. Except someone yesterday was in a horrible mood and ignored me and hett completely. think she was just having a bad day though, bless her. bus journey was a lil bit awkward though, hehe. got to school and found out that my fave couple in our year had broken up, waaa. i don't even know either of them very well but i actually thought they would get married! so saaad. maths first which was surprisingly pretty good! i got higher in my latest maths paper than i did in my mock which made me happyyy. and i think my teacher is finally realising that i would really quite like to do foundation. took him long enough. i haaad history next which went quite fast but was still pretty boring. i'm trying to think whether anything exciting happened at break but i don't think it did. tutorial was shit. english was ok, we finished reading blood brothers. and then lunch was just hilarious. hettie was eating fruit salad and was feeding me some of the juice but amy whacked the spoon and all the juice went in hettie's face. was rather amusing. except she couldn't see and her eyes were watering like crazy. so she tipped the rest of the juice down amy's back. which she didn't even notice until we told her, funny kid. had RE last which was boring but we could hear black eyed peas playing from the class next door so we all had a little sing song. cuuuute. had a nice chat with eed on the bus hoooooome. she rekindled my love for The Streets and their new album, nom. walked down to the shop to meet hett and buy foooood. then we walked back to hett's to get her stuuuff and evey was there, lovely girlie. came back to mineeeee and just chilled. and bitched about a certain silly silly boy. then watched eclipse and chatted and chatted some more. and got woken up this morning by my brother running into my mum's room and shouting 'BOO!' weird child. and now my daddy's gone to yorkshire :( aaand he gets to see my fave cousins! little bit jealous. but it's okay because i'm going to london on MONDAY!!!! wahoooo. and it's half 11 so i think i'm going to get out of bed now. maybe.
later kids x

But love is blind and you soon will find, you're just a boy again.

i've had a pretty noice day. apart from miss pearce being a cock. and i felt really poorly in p.e. naaat nice but i felt fine after. today i have done so much laughing, it's unreal. i went to hett's tonight and attempted to do my english there (failed so miss smallman is going to have to wait). had the biggest laughing fit ever at tea time, me and hett quite literally had tears running down our faces. then i sat and watched my sister and hettie doing a work out dvd while i did work and my sister is the most hilarious person that i have ever seen dancing, hilaarious. hett, me and lyd went to this swimming thing tonight but it was like aerobics in the pool. it was amazing but now i'm aching like fooook. this is a bit of a backwards blog but now i'm gonna start going on about lessons. science was faaabb, we had a supply and he was so cool, i loved him. he reminded me of a teddy bear. and he was so funny. he was actually like a fact machine! and he completely owned dan so is definitely in my good books. second science was a bit rubbish and i had to sit next to tom which was wubbish. but i was with hett and rachy too. and then p.e. was shit. and i hate miss pearce, sooo glad i don't have her next term. but we did yoga which i absolutely love. made me feel really dopey for the rest of the day though. last i had p.s.h.e which another supply! we were just in the ILC doing nothing really. apart from massaging lucy's head 'cos she had a headache, hehee. it was me, lucy, josh, emily and pat. josh and pat were watching this thing about cannabis and were generally just being really funny and weird. 'that cat is so fucking hench!' probably the quote of the day. and now i'm knackereeeddddd. night kiddo's x

take the pieces and build them skywards.

Today was one of those average days that i can't really remember. nothing particularly exciting happened. i don't think. art was noice, got all my books and folders sorted out which feels gooooood! and theeeenn i had history which wasn't very interesting and mr evans wasn't in a funny mooood. tutorial was okaaay, had briefing where the year 10's were doing their dance. pretty good liiiiike. then english which i didn't really enjoy today but it went really fast. s'all good. should be doing loads of english work now. but i'm not. hmm. much rather watch waterloo road. may have to attempt at multi tasking. p.e. was fun. had a nice lil catch up with deniz. and we went a bit crazy on the trampoline and now my legs hurt. i'm having such a lazy week, i can't wait for half term where i don't have to do anything. apart from see catherine, eeeeeeeeekkkk!! monday. is. so. soon. jgsdveibvawjknb!! little bit excited! hopefully seeing lots of people this half term, plans are looking goooood. right, i don't really understand how people can ask me to come to a party on one of the two nights where i get to see one of my best friends who i haven't seen in 6 months. no i will not leave her at home with my sister so i can come for a bit. i could see these people any day that i want to. catherine lives 6 hours away. i don't think some people understand how hard it is to go without seeing your best friends for months at a time! makes me angryyy. i really miss my yorkshire's at the minute. this is the longest i've gone without seeing them, in nearly 2 years. bad times.

miss you cuz.

heartfelt lies.

so last night was pretty perfect. cinema-ed it with tom and then went to his for a bit. but then today was one of the most confusing days i've ever had. a certain someone didn't talk to me all day and i thought i must have done something but didn't have a clue what, so i didn't know what to do. but it's all okay now. i think. didn't feel right that everyone else seemed to be way more clued up on it than me which was even more confusing. didn't really feel part of anything today. geography was fairly okay as it was before anything properly started. but then art wasn't very nice. and neither was maths or english. english was a bit better actually, claudie was in a really weird mood and wouldn't stop talking about cheese. kept me entertained for most of the lesson. strange girl. sorry for being grumpy tom ♥
p.s. happy for my lil sister getting her boiiiii

I love you. That is all.

Slow dancing in a burning room.

I've had a lovely day today. really relaxed and yummy. but nice relaxed rather than just laying in bed all day. Tom came round and we just watched lord of the rings. oh and he is definitely the bestest boyfriend in the world. he went and me and ruthie had a nice little chat about her love life which may just be going places. exciting stuuufff. so i read some of Keith Richards' autobigraphy which is amazing and i love him loads, i had teaaaa and then got into the bath. I haven't had a bath in ages so i filled it with bath bombs so it smelt all lovely. mmmmmm. best bath ever. now i feel all refreshed and slightly less tired than i was earlier. although i'm going to have to go to bed soon because i need to get up in the morning and do some work! i thought it would be nice to have a stress-free evening without any school stuff but it means that i have to get up early to do it instead, mehhhh. tomorrow is valentines day and i am quite looking forward to a cinema trip with tom, should be lovely.
night night kids x

This makes me feel pretty vain but this top will be mine.

Beautiful things never last, that's why fireflies flash.

Got some Deniz time today which was just lovely. She picked me up at 10 this morning and her mum drove us to Bath. We went for a shoppppp and we got some hair dye to do Deniz's hair later. Ha, we went into Boots to get it and two sales people came and offered us Benefit makeovers. So we had them, which was fun. Although I walked around for the rest of the day feeling far too made up. Oh and we tried on some 'curtain' dresses in H&M, personally I thought they were lovely. Deniz wasn't so keen. And i found the nicest top everrrr! I didn't want to buy it today because of the whole saving money thing, but hopefully I'll be able to find it in London. I'd better or I'll be mad. Absolutely loved it. We went and got a Shakeaway, massive nom and then bumped into Eve, Martha and Robyn which was cute. So we went home and saw some unexpected people on the train station. Awkward. But I saw Sam too which was nice! Haven't spoken to him in yonkkkks. Ismet picked us up from the station and we went back to Deniz's and I dyed her hair. We thought it was going to go ginger but it didn't, wahooooo! It just went a little bit lighter and looks lovely. I went home and got a Chinese. Wow. It was so so good. But now I'm absolutely stuffed. Watched Hustle toooo which I am slightly addicted to. Now I've got a bit of Razorlight on and am just chilling. Please say that my amazing grammar in this post has been noticed! Might go and watch a film. Hmmm. Later kids x

yummy holiday memories ♥

Until you come back where you belong, it's just another lonely sunday.

caaaan't be bothered. it got to second lesson and i just wanted to fall asleep. didn't help that it was history. why the fuck am i taking it for a level?! i can't really remember anything much from today. i think i was asleep for most of it. maths was boring. couldn't do it. history was boring but alice was lovely. tutorial was boring. english was pretty funny, dylan does the best posh Liverpudlian accent ever. oh, and ryan and katie brown had to read and the two characters they were reading, were in love so katie kept having to tell ryan she loved him. little bit ironic as they had a bit of a 'moment' last friday ;) r.e. was rubbish and went really slowly for once. and mr watkin is definitely losing his charm. ohhh no. but beth was cute. but forgot her mint imperials today, so we're going to have a mint imperial party in p.s.h.e. on thursday. buzzin. oh in case you were wondering, only 10 DAYS until london now!!!!!!!! eeeeeeek :) soooooo, came home. went to bed. as usual. such a boring life. now i'm about to settle down with my sister and watch eclipse. i'm ready for you taylor lautner!
later kids. x

Harry Potter Girlieeeeees.

You said time never waits, well that's okay cos i don't wait for time.

weeeeellll, the last two days haven't been particularly interesting. in the slightest actually! wednesday i had a 'skive' day because we have this thing once a year, enterprise day, where you're with you're tutor group all day and have to do these shitty little activity things so yeah, i skived. and i did so much school work at home, i was proud of myself. but i haven't done any since, and i have a maths exam tomorrow, whooops. me and anna went on one of our dates tonight, which was lovely as usual. except i'm not supposed to be spending any money because i'm saving for london in 11 DAYS. buzzin mate. sooo, went back to dads and no one was in apart from maria who was asleep because she had a migraine. so i took off all my wet clothes, put some nice warm pyjamas on, curled up on the sofa with a big blanket and chilled, reading keith richard's autobiography and listening to my ipod. yummmmy. dad took me home later and i went babysitting. the kids were fucking annoying tonight. they're usually pretty quiet but tonight they went mental. they were so hyper! just as i put them to bed. great. how annoying. but i get paid for it so i'm not complaining. well i am. but that's not the point. and i'm going to shleep now cos i'm absolutely shattererrrdddd.
big love kids x

welcome to jamrock.

so i was missing rupert loads as my blog background, here he is.

two months today thomas :)

i had a really lovely day. i did yesterday as well until about 9 when someone ruined it. but i'm okay now. so i usually hate mr bouquet and rant about him loads but for our last two lessons he has been really good! yesterday he compared a place to a 'geographical orgasm'. it was actually fecking hilarious. and jack melia, a guy in my class, is definitely one of the funniest people i know. he is OBSESSED with the pope. he went to see him when he came to england last year and he has this scarf thing that he wears all the time. he brought his rosary in the other day and (stupidly) let sam fotheringham wear it. dan then hit sam and the rosary broke. jack blamed it all on harry just because he's funny like that, but i don't think he was that upset. he said he's got like, 3 more at home, haa. so anyway, mr bouquet said 'bollocks' in class the other day and everyone has been completely ripping him for him ever since. he's alright at the minute. i had aaaaaart which made me happy because i got a new book and it has BLACK PAGES which will just generally make my life easier. and i decided on my theme. i'm going to do myths vs. reality. drawing medusa at the moment. ohh and i'm going to do mermaids, yaaaayyy! in tutorial we had to go and have our big year 11 picture taken which was exciting and i'm deffo getting it. maths was yummmmm, we had an exam in class but i was sat right next to the window with the sun beaming in on my face and ohhhh it was so nice. couldn't do the maths like, but heeey, did a nice pattern on my hand instead! english was okay, i was in a really can't be bothered mood but i had taran to entertain me and draw penises all over my book. and i love miss smallman. <3 i got home and got into bed to watch gleeeee. ate loads and loads of broccoli. cos i love it. and looking forward to having a day off tomorrow. i'm going to get loads of work done plus maths revision and shit like that, so i can have a mega weekend with deniz. LIE-IN TOMORROW. and catherine in 13 days. fucking yes.
goooooooodbye kids! x

...

thankyou for completely ruining my mood. that is all i have to say.

denizzle you fooking cutie.

so. much. boredom.

i look forward to weekends aaall through the week and when it actually gets to them, i hardly do anything which is annoying. this weekend i have literally, seen tom and then just stayed in bed. hett came over for a bit earlier which was noice as she's been away all weekend. i went to the shop to see mum at the shop this afternoon purely because i was ridiculously bored. naat good. next weekend i have decided that i'm going to do loooads. maybe. or not. and what's even worse is that because i've hardly done anything this weekend, i should have had loads of time to do work but oh, no, i haven't done ANYTHING. boredness = infuriation. and now i'm going to go and have a shower to waste some more time where i could be doing some work. daaaayum.
later kidz x

stunned.

what a strange, horrible sunday morning. mum came into my room at about 9 saying she was just going for a walk. i went back to sleep and was then woken by a phone call at about 10. it was mum crying and telling me she'd been bitten by a dog and got a bit lost but would be home in about 20 minutes. i was shitting myself, it was terrifying but i just waited for her to come home. i went and made breakfast for me and sol and then got sol dressed. mum came come and she's got a massive gash taken out of her arm from this stupid fucking dog. she had decided to go a way that she doesn't normally go and while she was walking across this big field, an Alsation started running towards her. mum isn't scared of dogs but she knows that if a big dog like that is pelting towards you barking, you just stand still and relax, so that's what she did. the dog's owner was screaming at it to stop but it didn't so he obviously didn't have any control over it. so this Alsation ran up to her, jumped up at her and bit her arm. the owner came up and was like, 'sorry sorry, he never usually does this!' mum was obviously pretty upset by this time so just walked off. she was a bit panicked and out of it now i think which is why she got a bit lost. she came back and we bathed her bite and cleaned it. al rang up asking if she was okay, because apparently she saw him at his house and burst into tears. he is such a lovely man! now mum's gone to work and we're going to the hospital later to get it checked out and she might have to have a tetanus jab. the worried butterflies from my tummy have only just disappeared, i was so scared. i hate it when mum cries. but just think, if it had been my brother with mum or any other little kid, that dog could have easily done way more damage. owners who can't control dogs like that shouldn't be allowed to have them.

p.s. Angus & Julia Stone are amazing.

we're all a little crazy.

yum at today eyyy. tom came over at about 11 and we chilleddd and watched the end of lord of the rings. needed to finish it off seee. had a little walk down to the shop and back in which he took far too many disgusting pictures of me. we ate lunch and looked at one of mother's books on 'britain from above', oh and by the way tom, if you are reading this which you probably are, there IS a place called Greenwich in america! Greenwhich village in new york. loserrrr. then he forced me to watch peep show which was admittedly pretty good. and now i'm having another late night for no particular reason which probably won't do me any good but hey, it's the weekend. absolutely buzzing for bun coming down on the 21st of febbb!! will be so lovely to see that face again. i'm not in a very bloggy mood really. might just go to sleep. because i am that kind of boring person. sleep tight kids x

the sun is in the sky and it's gonna be a glorious day.

so the second time i saw mcfly was at dalby forest in yorkshireland. i went with ruth wilkinson again but as it was so close to home, loads of people from my school went too. the band supporting were Vagabond who i had previously seen at Middlesbrough Music Live so that was just lovely. got a cheeky wink off one of the guitarists too. oh yeah, forgot to mention that i was RIGHT at the front. like, as far forward as you can get. as in, pressed up against the barrier. YUM. i don't much to say about this gig so i'll just put loads of photies up. oh, but at the end of it, dougie managed to get hold of this pot of squeezy honey and i got it aaall over me. best honey i've ever had. and danny got down off the stage and was running up and down and i grabbed hold of his hand, mwahaa. so yeah, me and danny jones have officially held hands. <3.

she's just a loner with a sexy attitude.

i'm in such a mcfly mood. i don't get these moods that often anymore but when i do, i get pretty obsessed. wahooo, i'm going to write down my mcfly story because they are the most amazing men to ever have lived.
okay, so i started getting obsessed with them in about 2008, don't really know the specific time but i went to see them for the first time at the M.E.N. Arena in Manchester with ruth wilkinson, on the 21st of November 2008. we went up there on the train with my mum's best friend celia. all i remember from that journey was trying to fit as many lollies in our mouths as possible. yum times. so we arrived in manchester at about half 5 and went into a massive primark to have a look around. we then had to navigate our way around the trams to get to the arena. i looove cities at night. i've been to manchester late at night since then and there's just something about it! anywhooo, we got the the M.E.N. and just chilled until we were allowed to go in. we went up to our seats and there were these massive screens above us where people could text in to. they said things like 'scream if danny is your favourite!'. so me and rufus had pretty much lost our voices before the gig even began. the support bands came on, they were Avenue and another that i can't remember. so yeah, they were pretty shit. but then mcfly came on, wahoooooo! we sang/screamed our way through it. ooh, and for star girl, they got on this different stage that flew over everyone's head while they were playing on it. it was amazing. mcfly finished with fireworks and everything. the lights came on and i couldn't hear a thing. definitely temporarily deaf. whoopsiee. me, ruth and celia went back to celia's friends house on the outskirts of manchester and stayed the night there which was lovely. then celia put me and ruth on the train back to Middlesbrough, she decided to stay with her friend for a few days. the first time i saw mcfly, heheee, ooft. <3

joe joe.